First Post

I think it's time for a change in my life. I believe that posting that change on the web will make it more real, and make me more likely to succeed in this change.

The change is thus: stop wasting time, start making life the way I want it to be.

Now then, this hopefully will not be a Franklin/Gatsby type of list and schedule to conform my life into the life I want it to be. I believe that my life is how I want it to be all the time, and putting time constraints on what and where I do and go is more restricting than freeing. I am hoping that this transformation will be more organic, and more action oriented than plan orientated. With that being said I will go ahead and tell you my goals for this website in particular, not the goals of my changing life which I will keep private for now.

I want to create a place for me to describe the processes I am going through, and a place to sound off on my beliefs, actions and passions.

So since I am talking about changes, I am going to rant a little about how I think change occurs. Change happens either from an internal motivation or an external motivation. Those from external motivations are the simple sort (i.e. putting on more blankets when it is cold). Internal motivations deal more with our emotions, passions, beliefs, goals, desires, and thoughts. Internal motivations are necessarily more complex than external motivations. Most often my internal motivations center around pain, dissastisfaction and dissapointment in myself and others. A mentor once told me that you will learn from either pleasure or pain. Clearly, I learn from pain more than pleasure. This is not a bad thing, as long as there is learning taking place. Going through the same pain over and over again is what happens when you don't learn. After you learn you can take actions to change based on your internal motivations. Actions is what makes changes. Actions over a long period of time creates new habits, and this is the change.

My final thought on change and motivation is that change is not easy even though it occurs every second of every day. It is the fact that it is always happening that makes it hard; this is because for every change you make in one direction there will be another change that you might not be willing to live with. If you change your nutritional habits, it will create a change in your thought process and many of your physical processes. Not only that, but it will create cravings, strong physical effects such as hunger, and it will make you want to go back to your old diet which was homeostasis for you. Going from homeostasis into any change is resisted by every cell of your body, even if it is a beneficial change.

Right now, I am very hungry, cranky, and generally mad at the world. I better get used to this. I've been told to feed off the anger. Hopefully that will mute some of the pain. That and a lot of good punk rock: punkradiocast.